To My Philippe’, My Love

Last night I filled my home, our home, with all our dear friends who have bolstered my heart: My dearest friends, our friends, my love, who have been here for me after my loss of you, my love, and during my year of healing emotionally and physically.

It was a lovely evening, and yet there was a huge part of me that ached deep in my soul because you weren’t by my side my love…or were you?

As our friends piled in one by one they shared how their heart’s hurt missing you…my sweet love. For some, it was even difficult walking in knowing you were not here. So much of who I am, and the “things” that surround me are because of you, my love.

A sweet and special crew...
A sweet and special crew…Diana, the two Bob’s & Janet

I had a jazz trio, my sweet; you would have liked them. Your favorite ladies, no longer the girls they once were, were here loving me, hugging me reminding me of how much love you shared with so many. You left such a gaping void in this world, my Philippe’.

Lisa Kelly Trio and Dr. Joseph Rozas joins in playing his harmonica
Lisa Kelly Trio and Dr. Joseph Rozas joins in playing his harmonica

I threw a party my love…alone, by myself, without you. As wonderful as it was, it was missing your humor, the ease you always gave everyone. It missed your smile and your beautiful blue eyes that saw every thing and touched everyone’s heart…and it missed your wonderful desserts made of pure love.

The Lisa Kelly Trio playing sultry Jazz for a mesmerized audience...
The Lisa Kelly Trio playing sultry Jazz for a mesmerized audience…

However, you would surely have delighted in Carol’s monumental dessert undertaking. She made the most delicious array of cookies and brownies, and even chocolate covered strawberries! It was the yummiest, most delectable table in the house! Only yours would have given her a run for her money.

While I was walking around our beautiful home, our wind chimes were swaying in the breeze singing softly with their melodic tones we so carefully chose. Your last chime that you loved so much gently rang out to me in the brief stillness of the afternoon…and I knew. I knew in that moment my love that you were indeed with me.

The delightful trio began the evening with “My Funny Valentine” and ended it with another rendition, and each time I felt my heart swell and my eyes glaze and I thought of you…as did everyone who knew what this song meant to me.

Trevor wore one of your shirts and he looked so handsome in it.

Philip's girls Sarah & Jennifer and Sarah's delicious hubby, Trevor
Philip’s girls Sarah & Jennifer and Sarah’s delicious hubby, Trevor

My doctor, who refused to give up, but instead fought to find out what was wrong with me, was here. So too, was Rodney, who ministered my Lyme remedy for three years. My wonderful physical therapist who brought me back to a better physical wellness was here, and so too, were Ziggy and Faschie’s doctors who cared as much for me as for them.

Lovely Keelie Ann and Norma share a moment of levity.
Lovely Keelie Ann and Norma share a moment of levity.

Keelie Ann, whom you never met, my precious nail tech who came to our home to keep my nails beautiful in the depths of my severe illness was here. So too, was Tom, who has guided me when legal matters arose and who made me many a bowl of soup, and of course, every dear friend who we both have always loved.

Tom, the excellent lawyer & soup chef conversing with Dr. Bob Baringer & his lovely wife, Janet.
Tom, the excellent lawyer & soup chef conversing with Dr. Bob Baringer & his lovely wife, Janet.

It was a house filled with joy, good food, excellent music and good cheer, but it missed you…your mischievous nature, your clever wit, your infectious laughter, your captivating glances, your warm touch, your encapsulating embrace, and the pride you would have openly shared with the mere mention of me.

I was reminded tonight by so many who love you how lucky I was to have found you, and how clever I was to have recognized how singularly special you were. It made me smile quietly to myself because I know to the core of me that I was indeed a very lucky woman.

Florida's supreme sculptor, Enzo Torcoletti feeding his muse and wife, Gayle a chocolate covered strawberry. A most adorable couple!
Florida’s renown sculptor, Enzo Torcoletti feeding his muse, pottery artist and wife, Gayle, a chocolate covered strawberry.
A most adorable couple!

I know too, my love that you would have argued that it was you that was a lucky man! Just knowing this makes me feel all the luckier. I miss you my love with every breath I take…but I want you to know that I am well. I am strong, and I am surrounded by love.

I am still, and will forever be, a very lucky woman, indeed.

Beautiful Rebecca with her beau, Joseph...lucky man!
Beautiful Rebecca with her beau, Joseph…lucky man!
Norma with one of Philip's girls, Jeanne...she's now "my girl".
Norma with one of Philip’s girls, Jeanne…she’s now “my girl”.
Two scholars undoubtedly in a deep scholarly discussion of great importance.
Two scholars, Bob & Tom, undoubtedly in a deep scholarly discussion of great importance.
Two stunning artist's, one a photographer, the other a pottery artist...
Two stunning artist’s, one a photographer, the other a pottery artist…
Ann  & Mark on the porch enjoying the soft breeze
Ann & Mark on the porch enjoying the soft breeze
Philip's best bud, John, his beautiful bride, Brenda and Laura Lee Wade in the background, all of whom are very special to me...
Philip’s best bud, John, his beautiful bride, Brenda and Laura Lee Wade in the background, all of whom are very special to me…
Faschie needs a mommy cuddle...
Faschie needs a mommy cuddle…

Comments (3)

  1. Hi Norma, you may not remember me from so many years ago. I am encouraged by your inner strength, resolve to be well and your courage in confronting such a loss of your lover and best friend in life. Peace be upon you, dear sister and may your recovery and shareing of the pains of such a loss of companionship and health find you ever stronger by your sharing. Thanks for all thaT YOU DID for me when I was as saddened by my life then as you are now, be strong, be resolved to be happy and always remember the journey to acceptance of out fate begins by accepting the things we cannot change and changing the things we can change with courage.

  2. Jerry, I’m embarrassed that I do not remember you, although your name rings familiar. Your words are sweet, touching and encouraging. Why don’t you email me directly so we can chat without the world’s eyes? norma@normasherry.com I do strongly believe in the acceptance of fate. …and Philip’s strength and acceptance of life’s experience reminds me daily what he wanted for me. Thank you, Jerry, for reading my words and for reaching out…

  3. Hi Norma,
    So beautifully written as always and as only you could do.

    Thank you so much for inviting Mark and I to your wonderful party last evening. As I sat in your lovely porch listening to the chimes, I imagined how you and Philip must have enjoyed so many evenings such as last night’s with the nice breeze and, along with the chimes, the gentle sounds of nature (interrupted by much laughter between you, two!), surrounded by your gorgeous potted greenery and flowering plants. Your home itself is a real home – filled with warmth and comfort.

    I’ll never forget how Philip always gave the person he was listening to his 100% attention – the world could be crashing down around him and he’d never know it! What a wonderful person, and I’m so happy you had him in your life and that you had an overflowing abundance of happiness together.

    Loved everything about the evening -your beautiful smile, your guests, the food, the jazz band (which was awesome!)…it was really perfect.

    xoxoxo
    Ann

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